i have a friend who doesn’t want a boyfriend and for all the right ideas. Falling for guys has been such a down fall of mine. It ruins my self esteem because I constantly feel that I’m not good enough, let down, or completely inferior to the guys I think I deserve. It’s amazing, even the the shadow of a new crush, I still compare guys to the last guy I fell in love with; which was also a disaster. I don’t think at this time in my life that I actually have a strong enough heart and spirit to deal with falling in love.